I facepalmed so hard. I will never be able to take your flailing about stats seriously again (this is what you keep getting riled up about?). I am not trying to be mean or harsh, but please try to chill about this. For your own peace of mind. Holy hell, can't you see how you managed 19 votes at the IYFG for Fleeting? Twenty-six thousand hits at one archive - 50+ favorites, 100+ alerts, 6 C2s? I hope you realize that while these may not be the ultra-stats of a BNF years in the making, some of us can only balk in awe at the attention you feel you so lackingly receive.
I love the whole process: the research, the planning, the writing, the fantasizing. It’s the fic that’s always hit me in the gut, the heart, and in the brain, and if for no other reason than that, it will always be my most very favorite project I’ve ever done.
This is what you should be focusing on. Not how many of so-and-so's readers you can attract or win over, or how many people review versus just read the story, or how many awards you get per nomination on average. I think this: it is to my ever-loving frustration and deep, derisive bitterness that I never received the appreciation I thought was due for my work is the root of your problem, but I honestly do not know what to say in response to it, and I have no suggestions to make. Just, well, if that's how you go into something like this, you are always going to be disappointed. Is that really what you want out of fandom?
Everyone on board this ship that I’ve come in contact with has been incredibly thoughtful, mature, and open-minded, which means there’s hardly any wank or drama, and if there is? We can talk about it like adults and settle our differences.
Amazing how that works, isn't it? I'm still worried that with fics like Fragments and Eight-Fold Path doing so consistently well in the pan-fandom awards groups that we're going to eventually see an influx of immature people trying to capitalize on the "trend", but at least everything is holding steady so far (and we even managed to gain back some of the people who had stopped writing or were on hiatus, so yay for that, too).
Without actually hearing from this supposed fanbase that I’ve built, I’m left to wonder if someone is just gaming the system for their own amusement.
Head, meet desk. Your stats. Look at them. You don't get to that many hits/faves/alerts/c2s if no one is reading.
And thus began a long chain of events that caused me to step back from fandom for a bit (even when I wanted so desperately to cling to it) and devote some of my headspace to other things going on in my life
I hope, for your sake, that there is much less drama and depression in your RL in the year to come.
I thought all Sess/Kag fiction was held to that standard
What baffles me is how, after realizing that this was not the case, you managed to not only stick with it and put up with it for so long, but continued to want to be an accepted part of it. I have no idea how you managed that... I'd have been long gone. I've left entire sites and communities for less aggravation than Dokuga put you through.
the second I took a stand and left the site, they turned their backs on said stories.
This? Is fandom life, and I say that based on my own bitter experiences. When things are going your way, it's all well and good, but it only takes one word to turn your "fans" on you. They chose the popularity/community over your fics, or at least vocally supporting your fics. It happens. But I don't think it's as malicious as you're making it out to be (if it was malicious, they'd be attacking you for your "betrayal", not ignoring you).
Once again at the top of my list is finishing the projects I’ve already started.
Of course, you know that making this an official goal means you either won't reach it or you'll start eighty new projects to fill the void left by the finished ones. LOL
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I facepalmed so hard. I will never be able to take your flailing about stats seriously again (this is what you keep getting riled up about?). I am not trying to be mean or harsh, but please try to chill about this. For your own peace of mind. Holy hell, can't you see how you managed 19 votes at the IYFG for Fleeting? Twenty-six thousand hits at one archive - 50+ favorites, 100+ alerts, 6 C2s? I hope you realize that while these may not be the ultra-stats of a BNF years in the making, some of us can only balk in awe at the attention you feel you so lackingly receive.
I love the whole process: the research, the planning, the writing, the fantasizing. It’s the fic that’s always hit me in the gut, the heart, and in the brain, and if for no other reason than that, it will always be my most very favorite project I’ve ever done.
This is what you should be focusing on. Not how many of so-and-so's readers you can attract or win over, or how many people review versus just read the story, or how many awards you get per nomination on average. I think this: it is to my ever-loving frustration and deep, derisive bitterness that I never received the appreciation I thought was due for my work is the root of your problem, but I honestly do not know what to say in response to it, and I have no suggestions to make. Just, well, if that's how you go into something like this, you are always going to be disappointed. Is that really what you want out of fandom?
Everyone on board this ship that I’ve come in contact with has been incredibly thoughtful, mature, and open-minded, which means there’s hardly any wank or drama, and if there is? We can talk about it like adults and settle our differences.
Amazing how that works, isn't it? I'm still worried that with fics like Fragments and Eight-Fold Path doing so consistently well in the pan-fandom awards groups that we're going to eventually see an influx of immature people trying to capitalize on the "trend", but at least everything is holding steady so far (and we even managed to gain back some of the people who had stopped writing or were on hiatus, so yay for that, too).
Without actually hearing from this supposed fanbase that I’ve built, I’m left to wonder if someone is just gaming the system for their own amusement.
Head, meet desk. Your stats. Look at them. You don't get to that many hits/faves/alerts/c2s if no one is reading.
And thus began a long chain of events that caused me to step back from fandom for a bit (even when I wanted so desperately to cling to it) and devote some of my headspace to other things going on in my life
I hope, for your sake, that there is much less drama and depression in your RL in the year to come.
I thought all Sess/Kag fiction was held to that standard
What baffles me is how, after realizing that this was not the case, you managed to not only stick with it and put up with it for so long, but continued to want to be an accepted part of it. I have no idea how you managed that... I'd have been long gone. I've left entire sites and communities for less aggravation than Dokuga put you through.
the second I took a stand and left the site, they turned their backs on said stories.
This? Is fandom life, and I say that based on my own bitter experiences. When things are going your way, it's all well and good, but it only takes one word to turn your "fans" on you. They chose the popularity/community over your fics, or at least vocally supporting your fics. It happens. But I don't think it's as malicious as you're making it out to be (if it was malicious, they'd be attacking you for your "betrayal", not ignoring you).
Once again at the top of my list is finishing the projects I’ve already started.
Of course, you know that making this an official goal means you either won't reach it or you'll start eighty new projects to fill the void left by the finished ones. LOL