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A Dream Deferred
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Pairing: Inuyasha/Kagome
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iyissekiwa #64 | Lose
OH SNAP I'm in the big leagues now! LOL.
So, it seems by joining and contributing to this community, I've committed myself to a word limit for the majority of my contests. Cross your fingers I make it out intact!
This is the second straight piece I wrote (after "Comfort") that I felt inordinately proud of, as I managed to encompass the whole story within the word limit. Considering my usual verbosity (and, given a free word count, I'm regularly over 1200 words for a one scene oneshot), this is no small accomplishment!
This came from a rather dark (and embarrassing) place. I was at the end of my cycle, which for me generally means a few days of absolute depression. I tell myself its my body's way of reacting to the fact that it hasn't yet been used for its ultimate, intended biological purpose: that is, carrying and bearing a child. As I was not feeling particularly well on this day, I had laid down for a nap between sessions of reading a boring-ass academic paper for one of my classes. A bit of strange visualization (and a wacky dream) later, I got up and ran to my computer to write this out. It wouldn't shake loose, and by now I'm used to the feeling of when something's ready to be written out or lost forever.
The idea is this: a rather bittersweet post-canon snapshot of the main couple. Kagome has just lost their baby, and they are sitting together, alone, in the aftermath. I hoped to convey not only the sense of loss they both feel at their baby's untimely death, but also how bad she felt for failing to fulfill his dream of having children in the first place. I don't know, maybe I've read too many of these sorts of fics, but it seems to me that, if Inuyasha has ever had a desire for a family of his own, he's never expressed it. So many years of his life he was alone, convinced he'd never find someone to share his world with. Finding Kikyo...then Kagome...and being able to have her as he couldn't have his first love...I'm sure the thoughts and desires were there.
It was important for me to show that carrying a part-demon child was not easy for her. I don't imagine it would be (too many pop culture *and* fanon references for that one, LOL), but I think she would bear all that pain and more just to grant him this wish that he'd long ago buried within himself. So for her, losing their baby was significant on many different levels.
For Inuyasha, it was as well - but mostly, he's glad he didn't lose her as well.
It was nice to get back to my roots here, writing Inu/Kag canon fic. It's been a long time, and it felt very refreshing :) There is a good chance this fic will eventually be expanded to tell a bit more of this background, because the emotion to be explored in this context is too great a temptation for me to ignore!
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Pairing: Inuyasha/Kagome
Rating: T
Based upon:
iyissekiwa #64 | Lose OH SNAP I'm in the big leagues now! LOL.
So, it seems by joining and contributing to this community, I've committed myself to a word limit for the majority of my contests. Cross your fingers I make it out intact!
This is the second straight piece I wrote (after "Comfort") that I felt inordinately proud of, as I managed to encompass the whole story within the word limit. Considering my usual verbosity (and, given a free word count, I'm regularly over 1200 words for a one scene oneshot), this is no small accomplishment!
This came from a rather dark (and embarrassing) place. I was at the end of my cycle, which for me generally means a few days of absolute depression. I tell myself its my body's way of reacting to the fact that it hasn't yet been used for its ultimate, intended biological purpose: that is, carrying and bearing a child. As I was not feeling particularly well on this day, I had laid down for a nap between sessions of reading a boring-ass academic paper for one of my classes. A bit of strange visualization (and a wacky dream) later, I got up and ran to my computer to write this out. It wouldn't shake loose, and by now I'm used to the feeling of when something's ready to be written out or lost forever.
The idea is this: a rather bittersweet post-canon snapshot of the main couple. Kagome has just lost their baby, and they are sitting together, alone, in the aftermath. I hoped to convey not only the sense of loss they both feel at their baby's untimely death, but also how bad she felt for failing to fulfill his dream of having children in the first place. I don't know, maybe I've read too many of these sorts of fics, but it seems to me that, if Inuyasha has ever had a desire for a family of his own, he's never expressed it. So many years of his life he was alone, convinced he'd never find someone to share his world with. Finding Kikyo...then Kagome...and being able to have her as he couldn't have his first love...I'm sure the thoughts and desires were there.
It was important for me to show that carrying a part-demon child was not easy for her. I don't imagine it would be (too many pop culture *and* fanon references for that one, LOL), but I think she would bear all that pain and more just to grant him this wish that he'd long ago buried within himself. So for her, losing their baby was significant on many different levels.
For Inuyasha, it was as well - but mostly, he's glad he didn't lose her as well.
It was nice to get back to my roots here, writing Inu/Kag canon fic. It's been a long time, and it felt very refreshing :) There is a good chance this fic will eventually be expanded to tell a bit more of this background, because the emotion to be explored in this context is too great a temptation for me to ignore!
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The last 3 or 4 short pieces I've written I feel could be expanded upon. It's a nice feeling to have, knowing there's always something on the back burner to be tinkered with :)