Sweet Sorrow
Link to MM.org
Link to FF.net
Pairing: Sesshoumaru/Kagome
Rating: T
Inspiration: "Can't Help Falling in Love" (C) 1961 Elvis Presley
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dokuga_contest Drabble #23 | Missing
I need to get back in the habit of writing these, hehe :) I've mostly been using the prompts from this community to write Allegiance, but every so often I have another idea instead. This was one of those weeks.
I seriously fought long and hard with this prompt. I've written for every single drabble prompt at this community since its inception, and it's become a matter of pride to keep going, even though some of the prompts are less than inspiring sometimes.
I was on something of a roll with Allegiance - I've used six of the last eight prompts to further that series along - but I wasn't to the point were I was ready to write the obvious scene with this one. So that meant looking elsewhere for inspiration, and it certainly took its sweet time coming to me, hehe.
I ran through ideas all weekend, but kept coming back to this image of Kagome knocking around a big, empty house by herself after Sesshoumaru went away. This, coupled with the first few lines of dialogue, gave me my scene: Sesshoumaru leaving for a trip, and Kagome wishing he wouldn't go.
I was shooting for straight-up romance here, but I think I missed my mark. (I can't help it, I always have an angsty on my shoulder, LOL). The original cut had more in it about Kagome's uncertainty over being his lover (or mistress), and how she was never quite sure that he would return to her - typical beginning of a relationship sort of insecurity, coupled with the fact that she didn't really know him, as he keeps his private life under fierce protection.
The where's and why's aren't so important, given the length of the piece, and thus they never fully developed in my mind - he's a high-powered businessman, who is completely devoted to his life's work, and travels the world for it. Why he has to keep such close tabs on his life, I don't know. Why he's treating Kagome like a mistress instead of a girlfriend, I don't know.
This piece was definitely about his enigma, and it seems the readers at Dokuga picked up on that, as they kept asking me if he was for real by the end. Maybe the sour mood I was in when I wrote it shone through, despite the sappy inspiration music and the double cliche?
My answer is: yes, he meant it, he's coming back to her, he just couldn't resist teasing her for being doubtful.
I have the stirring of an idea for a sequel to this using this week's prompt, but I'm not sure if it will work out quite yet - it is still in the fuzzy, formative stages. I'd hate to think this prompt will break my streak, but given some of the misfortunes I've felt with that group of late, perhaps its no surprise...plus I'm kinda in love with the projects I have going on outside of the contest communities here at LJ, and I'd like to devote more time to them.
We'll see how it works out, I suppose.
Link to FF.net
Pairing: Sesshoumaru/Kagome
Rating: T
Inspiration: "Can't Help Falling in Love" (C) 1961 Elvis Presley
Based upon:
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I need to get back in the habit of writing these, hehe :) I've mostly been using the prompts from this community to write Allegiance, but every so often I have another idea instead. This was one of those weeks.
I seriously fought long and hard with this prompt. I've written for every single drabble prompt at this community since its inception, and it's become a matter of pride to keep going, even though some of the prompts are less than inspiring sometimes.
I was on something of a roll with Allegiance - I've used six of the last eight prompts to further that series along - but I wasn't to the point were I was ready to write the obvious scene with this one. So that meant looking elsewhere for inspiration, and it certainly took its sweet time coming to me, hehe.
I ran through ideas all weekend, but kept coming back to this image of Kagome knocking around a big, empty house by herself after Sesshoumaru went away. This, coupled with the first few lines of dialogue, gave me my scene: Sesshoumaru leaving for a trip, and Kagome wishing he wouldn't go.
I was shooting for straight-up romance here, but I think I missed my mark. (I can't help it, I always have an angsty on my shoulder, LOL). The original cut had more in it about Kagome's uncertainty over being his lover (or mistress), and how she was never quite sure that he would return to her - typical beginning of a relationship sort of insecurity, coupled with the fact that she didn't really know him, as he keeps his private life under fierce protection.
The where's and why's aren't so important, given the length of the piece, and thus they never fully developed in my mind - he's a high-powered businessman, who is completely devoted to his life's work, and travels the world for it. Why he has to keep such close tabs on his life, I don't know. Why he's treating Kagome like a mistress instead of a girlfriend, I don't know.
This piece was definitely about his enigma, and it seems the readers at Dokuga picked up on that, as they kept asking me if he was for real by the end. Maybe the sour mood I was in when I wrote it shone through, despite the sappy inspiration music and the double cliche?
My answer is: yes, he meant it, he's coming back to her, he just couldn't resist teasing her for being doubtful.
I have the stirring of an idea for a sequel to this using this week's prompt, but I'm not sure if it will work out quite yet - it is still in the fuzzy, formative stages. I'd hate to think this prompt will break my streak, but given some of the misfortunes I've felt with that group of late, perhaps its no surprise...plus I'm kinda in love with the projects I have going on outside of the contest communities here at LJ, and I'd like to devote more time to them.
We'll see how it works out, I suppose.
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I was actually surprised that this wasn't in the winner list--I thought it was a very strong entry. Who knows why people vote the way they do.
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I'm usually hit with an idea as soon as I see the prompt, especially if it fits into Allegiance. I was very resistant to the idea of writing the
'big payoff' for that series just yet - Sess isn't ready to share his pain with any of us yet, if the "Bargain" expansion is anything to go on, LOL.
But really? I'm stuck in the Fleeting universe leik woah right now. I've got the next few chapters planned out in my head, I'm just waiting for the emotions to click so I can write them out. I'm excited about the twists and turns the story is taking, and its hard to try to come up with something completely new on the side.
I tend to go through these cycles, I guess - writing a lot for prompts comms, then turning back to my "big" projects, and then circle back around to contest comms again.
And I like the angst/drama/not-quiet-straight-up-romance aspect. The insecurity of her situation was definitely there, but never went into "poor me" emo territory.
I'm glad you appreciated it :) It's hard to write Sess as a straight-up romantic lead, he's just got too many issues, and hides too much of himself to be the "perfect" man (just IMO, of course). Maybe that's why I missed my mark, because I wasn't willing to bend him to my will...hm. I will keep chipping away at it nevertheless, maybe my next entry will be more successful.
I was actually surprised that this wasn't in the winner list--I thought it was a very strong entry. Who knows why people vote the way they do.
*shrug* Who knows? I received some very nice comments on it, which is ultimately what counts. I was so wrapped up in other things this week that I didn't get the chance to vote - I think yours was the only piece I read while the contest was still going on, so I have double as much to catch up on, LOL.
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Really looking forward to reading Fleeting. I'll probably get to it on Sunday--my husband is out of town, so I'm single parenting this weekend. Always happy to find some sess/kag that doesn't make me hate the fandom (I've got serious, serious issues) and I know from your dokuga contest writing that I'll be treated to an entertaining read. And I'll definitely review.
Totally with you on the comments! Just like reviews on the fic dumping sites, the reader feedback makes it worth the effort. And the nice thing about the LJ coms is that people typically try to say something constructive and positive. I get the most reviews on ffn, though a large percentage of them are the drive by type "nice chappie upd8 plz". Media miner are far fewer, but generally longer and more thought out. Dokuga...yeah.
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I seriously haven't been this excited and into a fic (of my very own!) since Every Heart, my first fic for this fandom. Fleeting is eating my brain in the exact same way. I'm also just having a lot of fun writing it - the tone is very casual, and I'm experimenting with different sorts of style things, etc. It doesn't feel like a chapter fic, where everything has to fall in line and parallel nicely. I really like this idea of writing a true "serial," of connected oneshots, even if it means I have to summarize the story in almost every entry. It helps me get my thoughts together and puts the story in context.
Really looking forward to reading Fleeting. I'll probably get to it on Sunday--my husband is out of town, so I'm single parenting this weekend. Always happy to find some sess/kag that doesn't make me hate the fandom (I've got serious, serious issues) and I know from your dokuga contest writing that I'll be treated to an entertaining read. And I'll definitely review.
I look forward to your thoughts on it! :) Response here at LJ has been...guh, amazing is the only word I can think of for it. I feel like I'm really succeeding with all of the storylines, and it's been a challenge to keep people on their toes. I like being able to interact with commenters here, too, because some of the conversations we've had (and the ability to question you guys via research posts, LOL) have definitely helped shape the story, just as much as the prompts have.
Totally with you on the comments! Just like reviews on the fic dumping sites, the reader feedback makes it worth the effort. And the nice thing about the LJ coms is that people typically try to say something constructive and positive. I get the most reviews on ffn, though a large percentage of them are the drive by type "nice chappie upd8 plz". Media miner are far fewer, but generally longer and more thought out. Dokuga...yeah.
Yes, reader feedback can make all the difference sometimes :) I probably receive about the same amount of attention on MM.org and FF.net, and have managed to receive some really thoughtful reviews at the latter (I'm hardly ever subject to drive-by "update plz!" reviews...). I've got one reviewer over there right now that has left me long, engaging reviews for the last three chapters :)
The people that review me at Dokuga generally are already familiar with my stuff; if they aren't, they wonder at why it doesn't have more reviews *facepalm*