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Pairing: Sesshoumaru/Kagome
Rating: X (explicit sex)
Inspiration: “Etchings #4” by![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
technoelfie
Based upon: “Feel Good Drag” © 2008 Stephen Christian, Joseph Milligan (Anberlin)
*falls over* Hoshit, did I just write porn?
Well, with inspirations like those, who couldn't? (That art piece, BTW, can also be viewed at deviantArt; I believe its behind the mature filter, though.)
So...time to exercise those citrus-writing skills. This is one of two song-based lemonfics I have planned, and this one really kinda sorta came out of nowhere. I was listening to internet radio (still haven't found a decent station - recs, please?), and this is one of the songs that ear-wormed its way into my head. Those of you on my f-list already know the LOLarious backstory to this, but basically: there's some debate over whether or not Anberlin is actually a Christian rock band. Their Wiki doesn't list it (well, not all the time), but various lyrics sites have erupted into flamewars over it. I'm inclined to believe where there's smoke, there's fire, so here's a bit of irony for you ~ hearing a song by a Christian rock band and basically having my mind go straight into the gutter, never to return.
So yes - I heard the song, was struck by the lyrics (below), and then was struck by this idea of forbidden/taboo relationships. This is one of the reasons I like the Sess/Kag pairing so much, because its plays into some of these very same ideas - which is what I did here. This is probably about as close to PWP as I'm ever going to get, seeing as how this is mostly about the sex and very little about what actually drew the characters into the sex - though that's not to say the implications aren't explored.
What's the backstory? There isn't much more of one than what's already in the fic itself; this is one of those times where the justifications I worked up for myself just didn't quite ring true, so I think it stands better like this, rather fuzzy around the edges, allowing the reader to supply the details from their own minds and experiences. It's AU, of course, and there's some mention of "demonic heritage," so take that as you will. Since I strive for realism over the fantastic, no, that doesn't automatically make Sesshoumaru into the most awesome.lovah.evah.
Perhaps the most interesting bit - which was intentional - was the way I built up the revelation of the identity of Kagome's lover in the story. He isn't explicitly mentioned until the end of the piece, though a hint to his identity is given about halfway through, which will (hopefully) build a knot of tension and dread in the reader's stomach, a matching pair to the one twisting through Kagome's guts. Oh, yes, if you've read any of my work, you well know my deep and abiding love of the angst, and it's here in freaking SPADES.
This is what I'd consider a true songfic, in that I weave the lyrics of the song into the dialogue and/or actions of the piece, as well as quote pertinent lines as scene breaks. These are incredibly hard to write (especially as dialogue, which can sound so OOC coming from someone as non-outwardly-angsty as Sesshoumaru), and in fact, I don't consider myself to have written one since Coda, published almost exactly a year ago. But they are oh-so-incredibly fun to work on, and if you hit it just right, they can stand rather successfully as well =)
psyco_chick32 was my very lovely beta for the piece, and she's the one who convinced me to publish it, in its whole form, on FF.net. There's really not a good place to cut out some of the more explicit stuff, as the angst is woven through every scene, every act, and helps build up to the ending. So *crosses fingers* it won't be booted for 1) being too 'adult' or 2) containing copyrighted song lyrics.
I sent this piece off to another set of eyes (not my usual forte) because I just have no confidence at all when it comes to the citrus. I know I consider this to be a lemon, but am I the only one? It's not dirty or crude or overflowing with purple prose, but it does contain fairly explicit description of sexual acts. How explicit must a piece be to be considered a true lemon? I ask, because I truly don't know, and I feel a bit ashamed admitting I have such a tough time with them, if what I write is so tame its not even worthy of the label...
So - enjoy. Feedback is welcomed/appreciated, here or at one of the archives. As I said, this is the first of two lemony fics I've planned to write; the other is Mir/San and based on an Airbourne Toxic Event song. I'm still working out the details there, but hopefully it will be surfacing soon as well.
Lyrics to the song (I've bolded the ones actually appearing in the story):
"I'm here for you," she said / "and we can stay for awhile
my boyfriend's gone / we can just pretend."
Lips that need no introduction / Now who's the greater sin
Your drab eyes seem to invite / (tell me darling) Where do we begin?
Was this over before / before it ever began
Your kiss / your calls / your crutch
Like the devil's got your hand
This was over before / before it ever began
Your lips / your lies / your lust
Like the devil's in your hands
Everyone in this town / is seeing somebody else
Everybody's tired of someone / our eyes wander for help
Prayers that need no answer now / cause I'm tired of who I am
You were my greatest mistake / I fell in love with your sin
Your littlest sin
Failure is your disease
You want my outline drawn
You are my greatest failure
Discourse your saving song
Consider this practice/semi-spoiling for the later chapters of Fleeting; alternatively, if you're unsure of the mood I'm attempting to set, think back to those "Doubt" and "Desperation" chapters, and if the characters had actually had sex there - this is a good approximation of why they didn't.
Link to FF.net
Pairing: Sesshoumaru/Kagome
Rating: X (explicit sex)
Inspiration: “Etchings #4” by
technoelfieBased upon: “Feel Good Drag” © 2008 Stephen Christian, Joseph Milligan (Anberlin)
*falls over* Hoshit, did I just write porn?
Well, with inspirations like those, who couldn't? (That art piece, BTW, can also be viewed at deviantArt; I believe its behind the mature filter, though.)
So...time to exercise those citrus-writing skills. This is one of two song-based lemonfics I have planned, and this one really kinda sorta came out of nowhere. I was listening to internet radio (still haven't found a decent station - recs, please?), and this is one of the songs that ear-wormed its way into my head. Those of you on my f-list already know the LOLarious backstory to this, but basically: there's some debate over whether or not Anberlin is actually a Christian rock band. Their Wiki doesn't list it (well, not all the time), but various lyrics sites have erupted into flamewars over it. I'm inclined to believe where there's smoke, there's fire, so here's a bit of irony for you ~ hearing a song by a Christian rock band and basically having my mind go straight into the gutter, never to return.
So yes - I heard the song, was struck by the lyrics (below), and then was struck by this idea of forbidden/taboo relationships. This is one of the reasons I like the Sess/Kag pairing so much, because its plays into some of these very same ideas - which is what I did here. This is probably about as close to PWP as I'm ever going to get, seeing as how this is mostly about the sex and very little about what actually drew the characters into the sex - though that's not to say the implications aren't explored.
What's the backstory? There isn't much more of one than what's already in the fic itself; this is one of those times where the justifications I worked up for myself just didn't quite ring true, so I think it stands better like this, rather fuzzy around the edges, allowing the reader to supply the details from their own minds and experiences. It's AU, of course, and there's some mention of "demonic heritage," so take that as you will. Since I strive for realism over the fantastic, no, that doesn't automatically make Sesshoumaru into the most awesome.lovah.evah.
Perhaps the most interesting bit - which was intentional - was the way I built up the revelation of the identity of Kagome's lover in the story. He isn't explicitly mentioned until the end of the piece, though a hint to his identity is given about halfway through, which will (hopefully) build a knot of tension and dread in the reader's stomach, a matching pair to the one twisting through Kagome's guts. Oh, yes, if you've read any of my work, you well know my deep and abiding love of the angst, and it's here in freaking SPADES.
This is what I'd consider a true songfic, in that I weave the lyrics of the song into the dialogue and/or actions of the piece, as well as quote pertinent lines as scene breaks. These are incredibly hard to write (especially as dialogue, which can sound so OOC coming from someone as non-outwardly-angsty as Sesshoumaru), and in fact, I don't consider myself to have written one since Coda, published almost exactly a year ago. But they are oh-so-incredibly fun to work on, and if you hit it just right, they can stand rather successfully as well =)
psyco_chick32 was my very lovely beta for the piece, and she's the one who convinced me to publish it, in its whole form, on FF.net. There's really not a good place to cut out some of the more explicit stuff, as the angst is woven through every scene, every act, and helps build up to the ending. So *crosses fingers* it won't be booted for 1) being too 'adult' or 2) containing copyrighted song lyrics.I sent this piece off to another set of eyes (not my usual forte) because I just have no confidence at all when it comes to the citrus. I know I consider this to be a lemon, but am I the only one? It's not dirty or crude or overflowing with purple prose, but it does contain fairly explicit description of sexual acts. How explicit must a piece be to be considered a true lemon? I ask, because I truly don't know, and I feel a bit ashamed admitting I have such a tough time with them, if what I write is so tame its not even worthy of the label...
So - enjoy. Feedback is welcomed/appreciated, here or at one of the archives. As I said, this is the first of two lemony fics I've planned to write; the other is Mir/San and based on an Airbourne Toxic Event song. I'm still working out the details there, but hopefully it will be surfacing soon as well.
Lyrics to the song (I've bolded the ones actually appearing in the story):
my boyfriend's gone / we can just pretend."
Lips that need no introduction / Now who's the greater sin
Your drab eyes seem to invite / (tell me darling) Where do we begin?
Was this over before / before it ever began
Your kiss / your calls / your crutch
Like the devil's got your hand
This was over before / before it ever began
Your lips / your lies / your lust
Like the devil's in your hands
Everyone in this town / is seeing somebody else
Everybody's tired of someone / our eyes wander for help
Prayers that need no answer now / cause I'm tired of who I am
You were my greatest mistake / I fell in love with your sin
Your littlest sin
Failure is your disease
You want my outline drawn
You are my greatest failure
Discourse your saving song
Consider this practice/semi-spoiling for the later chapters of Fleeting; alternatively, if you're unsure of the mood I'm attempting to set, think back to those "Doubt" and "Desperation" chapters, and if the characters had actually had sex there - this is a good approximation of why they didn't.