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A Most Favorable Arrangment
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Pairing: Sesshoumaru/Kagome
Rating: X (explicit sex)
Inspiration: “Do You Remember” © 2009 Jay Sean, Sean Paul, J-Remy, Bobby Bass, Jared Cotter, Frankie Storm, & J Perkins [Jay Sean feat. Sean Paul & Lil' Jon]
Exhibit A in the argument, "Grief does strange things to people."
I challenged myself to write a somewhat realistic and wholly dispassionate scene between Sesshoumaru & Kagome if the timeline had carried on, and Kagome had been unable to return to the past. After all, "dispassionate" is Sesshoumaru's middle name, no? It was an...interesting experience, to say the least.
My Sess muse has largely been in hiding of late, because RL has been very stressful and depressing and he doesn't like that, so much. But the glimmer of an idea came to me, and somehow, it seemed to fit him best - a bit of hurt/comfort shrouded in a thin veneer of cold, cruel logic. I've missed this colder, more demonic side of Sesshoumaru, and I thought it would provide interesting fodder, trying to write this scene from his perspective, considering all of the other sexy-tiemz stuff has been from Kagome's, instead.
I'm not completely happy with this, but it's the best version to be had after picking at this for nigh on three solid days. I'm pleased with a couple of things - the distance I created between the characters, even in the midst of such an intimate act; the way I was able to have Sesshoumaru coolly assess the entirety of the situation, like he sees the trap for what it is, even as he walks into it (for his own, mysterious reasons); and even the sorts of emotions Kagome displays, fraught with anguish and guilt for seeking comfort (and eventually maybe even more) in the arms of her one true love's brother.
Anytime I write with Sesshoumaru, my vocabulary and sentence structure automatically shifts up a gear - I use a lot of concise words in a lot of long sentences. This is probably why not a lot of self-proclaimed Sess/Kag fans read my work - it's not easy to digest...but then, neither is Sesshoumaru, when taken in the entirety of his canon characterization. I can fully see him viewing sex as a tradeoff, allowing himself to be used if he can find some advantage in the meanwhile. Even though he has no allusions here of Kagome loving him or even wanting him, he is content to indulge her, because he gets something out of it as well, even if he's not willing to admit it. What does he want - sex, companionship, someone he can mold to his own personal standards? Even I'm not entirely sure - when he's being aloof, it extends even to me.
I'm most satisfied with how I was able to create (at least the illusion of) distance. Kagome is never explicitly named in this piece, nor is she considered much more than an ordinary human woman. There is little special about her, to Sesshoumaru's eyes - he merely notes how much she has changed since returning from the Feudal Era, and how far she has yet to go. He cares not for her past, her present, or her future - only how he will (or won't) fit into it. I was surprised to hear from someone I showed a snippet of this fic to that she sympathized with him, so it will be interesting to see what - if any - reader response there is.
What I feel is the weakest aspect of this piece is probably the depiction of the sex act itself. I chose a position that's supposedly very common in Russia, for the very fact that it can be committed quickly, in any setting. Which I found interesting when I first read that impression (from this book, for the interested) because spoons is one of the most comforting, intimate sexual positions there is. I had to rewrite this portion of the piece a few times, trying to take out any language that would make it feel like dub-con or even non-con. *shrug* I don't know if I succeeded, but I'm satisfied with what's left.
I walk away from this piece feeling rather depressed, which was, indeed, the point of the exercise...but it's never easy to feel sad when you have something brand new to post up. However, I think it's an accurate depiction of the distance I'm trying to put between myself and my grief over sitting vigil, and for that, I can only be satisfied.
BTW, the content doesn't really match its inspiration song for lyrics or melody...it's just what was playing on my mental radio while I was composing/editing this piece, because I find Seal Paul inexplicably therapeutic. LOL, go figure on that one o.O
Perhaps now that this has shifted some of the grief out of my head, I can work on what I actually intended to write this week - the next installment of Fragments. Hmm...
BTW, this will eventually be posted to FF.net, when they recover from their fail. Done.
LJ | MM.org | FF.net | dA[Please note: You need to be a member of my LJ community -
luxken27_fics - to access this (and all *other* Y- and X-rated) piece(s) here. Its open to all and unrestricted to join, provided you told eljay you were eighteen when you signed up.]Pairing: Sesshoumaru/Kagome
Rating: X (explicit sex)
Inspiration: “Do You Remember” © 2009 Jay Sean, Sean Paul, J-Remy, Bobby Bass, Jared Cotter, Frankie Storm, & J Perkins [Jay Sean feat. Sean Paul & Lil' Jon]
Exhibit A in the argument, "Grief does strange things to people."
I challenged myself to write a somewhat realistic and wholly dispassionate scene between Sesshoumaru & Kagome if the timeline had carried on, and Kagome had been unable to return to the past. After all, "dispassionate" is Sesshoumaru's middle name, no? It was an...interesting experience, to say the least.
My Sess muse has largely been in hiding of late, because RL has been very stressful and depressing and he doesn't like that, so much. But the glimmer of an idea came to me, and somehow, it seemed to fit him best - a bit of hurt/comfort shrouded in a thin veneer of cold, cruel logic. I've missed this colder, more demonic side of Sesshoumaru, and I thought it would provide interesting fodder, trying to write this scene from his perspective, considering all of the other sexy-tiemz stuff has been from Kagome's, instead.
I'm not completely happy with this, but it's the best version to be had after picking at this for nigh on three solid days. I'm pleased with a couple of things - the distance I created between the characters, even in the midst of such an intimate act; the way I was able to have Sesshoumaru coolly assess the entirety of the situation, like he sees the trap for what it is, even as he walks into it (for his own, mysterious reasons); and even the sorts of emotions Kagome displays, fraught with anguish and guilt for seeking comfort (and eventually maybe even more) in the arms of her one true love's brother.
Anytime I write with Sesshoumaru, my vocabulary and sentence structure automatically shifts up a gear - I use a lot of concise words in a lot of long sentences. This is probably why not a lot of self-proclaimed Sess/Kag fans read my work - it's not easy to digest...but then, neither is Sesshoumaru, when taken in the entirety of his canon characterization. I can fully see him viewing sex as a tradeoff, allowing himself to be used if he can find some advantage in the meanwhile. Even though he has no allusions here of Kagome loving him or even wanting him, he is content to indulge her, because he gets something out of it as well, even if he's not willing to admit it. What does he want - sex, companionship, someone he can mold to his own personal standards? Even I'm not entirely sure - when he's being aloof, it extends even to me.
I'm most satisfied with how I was able to create (at least the illusion of) distance. Kagome is never explicitly named in this piece, nor is she considered much more than an ordinary human woman. There is little special about her, to Sesshoumaru's eyes - he merely notes how much she has changed since returning from the Feudal Era, and how far she has yet to go. He cares not for her past, her present, or her future - only how he will (or won't) fit into it. I was surprised to hear from someone I showed a snippet of this fic to that she sympathized with him, so it will be interesting to see what - if any - reader response there is.
What I feel is the weakest aspect of this piece is probably the depiction of the sex act itself. I chose a position that's supposedly very common in Russia, for the very fact that it can be committed quickly, in any setting. Which I found interesting when I first read that impression (from this book, for the interested) because spoons is one of the most comforting, intimate sexual positions there is. I had to rewrite this portion of the piece a few times, trying to take out any language that would make it feel like dub-con or even non-con. *shrug* I don't know if I succeeded, but I'm satisfied with what's left.
I walk away from this piece feeling rather depressed, which was, indeed, the point of the exercise...but it's never easy to feel sad when you have something brand new to post up. However, I think it's an accurate depiction of the distance I'm trying to put between myself and my grief over sitting vigil, and for that, I can only be satisfied.
BTW, the content doesn't really match its inspiration song for lyrics or melody...it's just what was playing on my mental radio while I was composing/editing this piece, because I find Seal Paul inexplicably therapeutic. LOL, go figure on that one o.O
Perhaps now that this has shifted some of the grief out of my head, I can work on what I actually intended to write this week - the next installment of Fragments. Hmm...
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I do upload all my files as .rtf files though. I don't know if that would make any difference to what you are doing.
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I'll wait and see if it's still borked tomorrow to try this alternate method of posting, though I'm not sure I still have a document in my managers folder.
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My thoughts on him can pretty much be summarized by the way I'm writing him in Fleeting, albeit he is human and thus, more capable/prone to showing his emotions. Writing this piece was a nice bit of throwback into the enigma, the mystery, the way he holds his cards to his chest at all times. I dunno how much it really reflects how I see him dealing with sexual intimacy, but there is a thread of logic in there, if one is willing to look hard enough for it :P
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It's much MUCh easier to type him as the Ice Prince and have him behave as a two dimensional being than to get into the muck that can be exploring his full dimensions.
I totally agree - and it's sad more people aren't willing to look past the pretty facade. There's a lot more there, waiting to be poked at with any variety of sharp sticks :P
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The Sesshoumaru we met at the beginning was a very interesting villain. He could be cruel and vicious without blinking an eyebrow. When he stood in front of Tessaiga you would have thought he was in love. One minute he is ready to kill IY, the next he is ready to let him depending on what IY has just done.He smiles, he smirks. He is willing to kill Kagome merely because she took the sword from the stone and he did not. He is actually pleased that IY can give him a fight before he dies. He changes into the stupid dog form because he is daring IY and Tessaiga to prove that a hanyou can handle the sword. IY does not want the sword. He is angry that Sesshoumaru used the nowoman to pretend to be his mother. Kagome is mad because he kills the nowoman. He ignores his brother until he thinks he might know where the sword is . He pulls IY's eye out to get the jewel. Jaken had orders to kill IY as soon as they knew where the jewel. RT says that she likes complex characters. Sess is about as complex a character as you can get.
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But are they? I don't think either one is really happy with their arrangement. Both of them are in it for all the wrong reasons - Sesshoumaru is the one content with the status quo, because he's getting something else out of it.