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A few gems from my f-list

I always approach April 1 with a bit of trepidation, but maybe because I've taken a huge step back from the ridiculousness of IY fandom lately ~~(or maybe because I've jumped feet first into a childhood nostalgia fandom instead because of its sheer ability to make me insanely, pathetically happy)~~, I was surprised at how many funny or positive comm posts have popped up today to celebrate this great Day o' Pranks :D (Isn't it sad how much being in a wanky, competitive fandom can condition you to simply expect the worst from a casual perusal of your friends list?)

First, there is the ~*BEstFicEVeR*~ post over at

fanficrants. The post itself is only trumped by its comments, LOLOL. Do I smell a BNF in the making?

Then, we have the first of three posi-posts to

fandomsecrets, which was led by a secret I could've made myself (though I didn't, sadly):

ETA: Part 2 | Part 3

Seriously, I've made some really wonderful, awesome friends via fandom, and I know I don't tell you guys how much I appreciate you often enough. So, consider yourselves loved, in pixellated form <3

Perhaps it wasn't fair of me to simply drop things completely and not really say "hey its me, not you" ~ so let me say it now: hey, it's me, not you. Fandom really does bring out the worst in me, especially when I'm under stress. So, if you've been wondering why I stopped reviewing your work or commenting on your journal or participating in general, that's why.

Right now? I'm not writing, I'm not reading, I'm not reviewing - BUT. Everybody's stuff that I usually read is going on this great big list of "reviewing to do" so that when I get back into IY fandom full-time again, I can literally pick up where I left off. I'm not giving up my resolution to leave better quality reviews simply because I need a vacation.

In the meanwhile, I've been working on something for another fandom that has made me downright giddy. I want to get closer to the end before I share it, because frankly? Its been nice to simply be writing something for me instead of feeling the expectations of others weighing on my shoulders as well. Its reminding me why I even got into fandom in the first place, which has been absolutely refreshing =)

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Aw. <3

I feel the same way about all the friends I've made in the IY fandom, even when it got stressful and batshit insane. At least I have the friends I met.

Its been nice to simply be writing something for me instead of feeling the expectations of others weighing on my shoulders as well. Its reminding me why I even got into fandom in the first place, which has been absolutely refreshing =)

THIS. SO MUCH. This is healthy. You're doing something you want, and the only expectation you have is your own enjoyment. If someone else gets enjoyment out of it too, then, that's a bonus.

Banners, contest placements, and slews of reviews are always nice, but sometimes they make people crazy, so it's nice to get back to why we're really writing in the first place.

Eventually I will share my latest project (I've already started the resource post, LOL), simply because I've enjoyed working on it so much, even though there is literally no fandom for this show anymore. But there's something to be said for having it all to yourself for awhile, you know? Nobody else can possibly tarnish the giddy if they don't even know its there.

Its been a long time since I've been this happy about being a fan. I was never good at being competitive. I enjoy sharing my writing because I enjoy weaving stories, but somewhere along the line in these big fandoms, that sheer joy and pleasure is lost. That's why I like to see the posi-posts from wanky comms like

fanficrants and

fandomsecrets every so often, because it reminds us not to take ourselves so goddamned seriously.

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It's amazing how ridiculous fanficrants and fandomsecrets gets sometimes, isn't it? At least they're good for a solid reality check now and then.

Especially since

fanficrants has been overrun by the worst IY trolls ever. I wish they'd fuck up and get banned, but meh, I don't think it really matters. Another wanky troll would just replace them.

It's amazing how ridiculous fanficrants and fandomsecrets gets sometimes, isn't it?

It is. I've had to de-watch or ignore both for long swathes of time, but its stuff like this that ultimately pulls me back in :P Its why I enjoy some of the snark/drama comms, because the people that populate it tend to have decent senses of humor about themselves.

Especially since fanficrants has been overrun by the worst IY trolls ever. I wish they'd fuck up and get banned

I really wish people would just recognize them for what they are and ignore them, because that's the only way to make them go away: deprive them of attention. Its like they're in a contest with each other to see which one can get the most ridiculous comments on their posts anyway. What a waste.

*blunt* I thought you'd died.

Seriously though, it sucks when you get disillusioned by the fandom and need to take a step back to rest. Happens now and then -

I've been working on something for another fandom that has made me downright giddy.
SO happy for you. Ultimately, the fandom should just make you happy. You don't have to wade through all that wank unless you like it (or you enjoy watching it unfold, LOL).

*hugs*

*blunt* I thought you'd died.

LOL!! And yet I was still doing all the administrative stuff on the side. What was that, my ghost? :P

Ultimately, the fandom should just make you happy. You don't have to wade through all that wank unless you like it (or you enjoy watching it unfold, LOL).

I'll tell ya - my current obsession? Has no fandom. Not even a category on FF.net. Its quite bizarre, but in a way, very refreshing. I don't have to worry about pleasing anybody but myself, which is a huge relief. No fanon = a very good thing, indeed.

There are plenty of other places to wankwatch, I certainly don't need to be involved in it myself!!

What was that, my ghost? :P

~~or a sock/minion/ghost/puppet~~

^_^

You know its been too long if I've forgotten this meme o.O

*clutches chest*
YOU FORGOT I'M HEARTBROKEN NAO

How can you be heartbroken if my absence was filled with so many fanpoodles?! OR IS IT JUST BECAUSE I KNOW THE SECRET OMFG.

And yet I was still doing all the administrative stuff on the side. What was that, my ghost? :P
I was thinking your resurrected, mindless corpse which went through the programmed motions *snerk* but I like

psyco_chick32's answer better. <3

I don't have to worry about pleasing anybody but myself, which is a huge relief. No fanon = a very good thing, indeed.
Immensely refreshing, indeed. Good to hear <3

Haha, I figured you might be taking a break from fandom, and that's totally cool. (Just don't be like me and disappear for two years, mmkay? :D)

It's awesome you're doing something for yourself - that's what makes writing fun and all! Take your time, get away from the stupid, and just know you are much appreciated just for being you regardless of whether you're posting a bunch or not. :)

And dude. I'm totally curious about what your childhood fandom is now. =P

Haha, I figured you might be taking a break from fandom, and that's totally cool. (Just don't be like me and disappear for two years, mmkay? :D)

I make no promises. I was hesitant to step away, because when I leave, its usually for good. But in my travails off to the side here, I've realized how much I really miss you guys.

just know you are much appreciated just for being you regardless of whether you're posting a bunch or not. :)

Awww, thanks <3

And dude. I'm totally curious about what your childhood fandom is now. =P

Mwahahaha. All shall be revealed in good time, have no fear :D The next fic-related things I post to this journal will be for/about said fandom :D

I was hesitant to step away, because when I leave, its usually for good.

I, for one, won't begrudge you if you do, BUT -- *flails* I really hope that's not the case. Who will spam with heaps and heaps meta if you're gone?!

But in my travails off to the side here, I've realized how much I really miss you guys.

LOL - and I've realized how much your posts make my flist seem busy, believe it or not. :) But everyone's been a bit quiet lately, so there you go. Either way, I'm a wholehearted supporter of taking breaks from fandom on occasion. It's fun, but it can definitely be overwhelming with the dramaz and negativity sometimes. Personally, I will never regret the day when I took all of the usual drama-causing comms off my flist and just stuck to Friends and fanfic. It's funny for a while, but it just drains me - I'd rather write and play. :D

The next fic-related things I post to this journal will be for/about said fandom :D

...Why do I get the sneaking suspicion I might have to brush up on other new old!canon? >.>

Who will spam with heaps and heaps meta if you're gone?!

*huffs* It's not spam!

But everyone's been a bit quiet lately, so there you go.

*nods* Indeed, it seems to be one of fandom's slower moments, for whatever reason. I'm honestly surprised the new anime didn't bring more activity back than it did. Oh, well - goes to show how good I am at predicting trends! :P

I will never regret the day when I took all of the usual drama-causing comms off my flist and just stuck to Friends and fanfic.

THIS. When I did my little friends cut, I also dropped a load of comms that just made me rage at the very sight. Now when I update the newsletter, I only have to look at them one day a week, LOL. I still watch snark/wank/drama comms, but covertly. Its easier to let go if you merely observe...

..Why do I get the sneaking suspicion I might have to brush up on other new old!canon? >.>

Ahhh, but see, I'm nice! I've already posted up a HUGE resource mega-meta thread, which will be unveiled whenever any actual fic is posted. ~~So you can see the actual evidence of my fangirlism (well some of it...I didn't post download links for episodes, you're on your own for that one)~~

It's not spam!

LOL, true. But it's like spam, in that there's lots of it - except that you actually want it. :D

I'm honestly surprised the new anime didn't bring more activity back than it did. Oh, well - goes to show how good I am at predicting trends!

Yeah, I thought the same thing. I guess people weren't kidding when they said they were leaving once the story was over, LOL. Oh well! There's still the dub to be had - that might actually bring in fresh blood. (Hopefully, not too much of the bad kind.)

I still watch snark/wank/drama comms, but covertly. Its easier to let go if you merely observe...

I agree. I'm still a member of a lot of things, but I only go there when it gets referenced or I'm feeling particularly masochistic. Makes for a happier fandom experience all around!

(well some of it...I didn't post download links for episodes, you're on your own for that one)

LOL. Well, I doubt I'll have too much trouble with that one.

But yeah. Excuse me, I have to go die of curiosity now. ~~I wonder what's the best way to go about that?~~ =P

There's still the dub to be had - that might actually bring in fresh blood.

They're going to dub it for sure?

*hopes David Kaye is returning*

Excuse me, I have to go die of curiosity now.

Eh, it won't be a long wait, I don't think if life can leave me alone long enough to actually let me turn my squee into something useful *facepalm*

They're going to dub it for sure?

Well, I admit, I'm definitely assuming that there will be. Last I heard, they were talking about it. Truth be told, I'd be amazed if they didn't. For all of fandom's nonsense, IY was a popular series, and they'll cash in on that if they can.

if life can leave me alone long enough to actually let me turn my squee into something useful *facepalm*

The dilemma every fanfic writer must face, no? =P

Darn. My question was about this new fandom of yours, but I see you're not telling yet. ;)

I've also been dabbling, actually. I have a secondary account on FFN and everything. Of course, once I'm fully prepared to start some purely relaxing fic writing for a fandom and pairing that is both small and supportive, I'm struck by the actual *desire* to write my main IY fic. Not that I'm complaining! Just ironic, I guess, lol. It's so relaxing, isn't it? *happy sigh*

Have a fun break from the crazy! I do hope you won't go away forever. What will we do without an end to your fics? O.o But doing something for yourself is always rewarding, so I'm glad you're doing that. :)

Darn. My question was about this new fandom of yours, but I see you're not telling yet. ;)

LOL! You guys are going to...well, probably go "bzuh?!" when all is revealed. It is a pretty obscure show. I can't say I've actually interacted with any other fans, beyond sending a gushy "thank you!" note to the proprietor of a resource website for it :P

I've also been dabbling, actually. I have a secondary account on FFN and everything.

I contemplated that, but then I thought - nah. Too much work :P I've only ever written fic under one screenname, and I don't want to further fracture what little potential audience I have, so *shrug*

Good luck with that, though! =) I've had no desire to even think about my IY fics, but then - what I'm working on now is just fundamentally different, I think. The characters, canon, and structure of the show are such that I can't employ the same techniques I use with manga/anime fic.

It's so relaxing, isn't it? *happy sigh*

Its just fucking fun. I've spent more time than I care to admit taking caps, listening to music, and just being twelve years old all over again. I think it helps that this is like a retreat into childhood, so all that nostalgia is an intoxicating mix, hahaha.

I do hope you won't go away forever.

Not planning on it. I hate leaving unfinished business behind, at any rate.

What will we do without an end to your fics? O.o

I don't know, LOL. What have you been doing for the last two years? :P

But doing something for yourself is always rewarding, so I'm glad you're doing that. :)

It has certainly saved my sanity, because RL has not gotten any easier to bear.

It is a pretty obscure show.

Well, I'm intrigued! I might know it since, you know, we were kids at roughly the same time, lol. But we'll see.

I contemplated that, but then I thought - nah. Too much work

Yeah, I normally don't go in for that sort of stuff. I might not use it - I haven't decided. But if I do, it's less about keeping separation for the IY people and more about the new fandom. Let's just say that the age groups of the fans don't overlap a lot, lol.

I've had no desire to even think about my IY fics, but then - what I'm working on now is just fundamentally different, I think.

I get that. *nods* While IY characters have growth, manga and anime in general is much more static than most shows. I think dealing with a whole different world is just a major re-adjustment as it is! It's hard to jump back and forth.

I've spent more time than I care to admit taking caps, listening to music, and just being twelve years old all over again.

I don't think any of us appreciated it enough the first time around!

What have you been doing for the last two years? :P

Well, you're talking to someone who MIGHT just manage updating twice in 6 months. So you have a sympathetic audience here, lol. But when I'm not feeling sympathetic? Mostly staring at my laptop, hoping my psychic powers will emerge to make you write. :D

Well, I'm intrigued! I might know it since, you know, we were kids at roughly the same time, lol. But we'll see.

Of the handful of people I've already gushed about this show to, only one of them remembers it...and actually started watching it long after I'd left. :P It's one of those weird generational things, I think, kinda like how I hated MMPR because I was just a smidge too old for it when it first came out.

I am a little curious to see who, if anybody, remembers or even watched the show when it was first run.

Let's just say that the age groups of the fans don't overlap a lot, lol.

Ditto, to the nth degree!

I think dealing with a whole different world is just a major re-adjustment as it is!

Yeah, its this, mostly. I've started writing the fic and its been a lot of trial and error because I don't feel as comfortable writing these characters as I do IY. Even if I have no one else to satisfy but myself, I'm still my own worst critic.

I don't think any of us appreciated it enough the first time around!

Well, see...I did, LOL. Not enough, obviously, but part of the reason why its been so easy to slip back is because of how much I loved this show when I was a kid. My ship is the ship I sailed before I even knew what "shipping" was. My old crush on the cute boy has come raging back to life, and I still want to be my favorite character even though I'm nothing like her and never will be. It's like, I flipped the switch and I'm seven again, and I think that's part of why I'm enjoying it so much - its something I loved before I had the ability to analyze why I loved it.

Mostly staring at my laptop, hoping my psychic powers will emerge to make you write. :D

Well, I have been writing ~ ! (Maybe even something you might want to read one day, LOL.) But the last thing I wrote prior to this was that dA contest piece, so its definitely been awhile. I couldn't sustain myself if I only managed to put out something serviceable every six months or so o.O

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It's like, I flipped the switch and I'm seven again, and I think that's part of why I'm enjoying it so much - its something I loved before I had the ability to analyze why I loved it.

Fun! :D I'm rather that way about a few shows, myself. And it's like, when you see them again, you can just sink into it and not care that it's eons old. *another happy sigh*

Well, I have been writing ~ ! (Maybe even something you might want to read one day, LOL.)

LoL. Then, my powers are just falling a bit short! I must concentrate on having you write AND post. ;)

I'm so glad your new old fandom is giving you so much love :) Kind of like spring cleaning, getting rid of all the IY wankiness.

Thanks <3

We all need to take periodic breaks, I suspect. If only to take a step back and see if we miss it, or if we can move on without it. It's been pleasant to realize that, even if I don't necessarily miss the shenanigans, I miss the people - kinda like reaffirming my judgment in the first place.

And, well, you guys rock anyway :D

^_^ Glad to hear things are going well for ya. It's amazing what some time away does for your state of mind and outlook on things as a whole.

And now I feel all sorts o' special to know what said fandom is, LOLOL

SO MUCH MORE THAN I SHOULD

Nah, you should feel special! <3 I think I prodded you to tell me the big MMPR-secret before you were ready to share it with the world, so really? Its just the strength of the mindmeld :D

~~Plus you get it - yummy silly stupid childhood ships FTFW!~~

I'm glad you're finding something to write that makes you happy, without all the wankery. That's what fanfiction should be.

I am grateful for my VL friends also! ((Huggles))

Sometimes being your own fandom is the best <3

Online friends rock!! =)

Glad to see you. You should always write for yourself and not for the fanpoodles. That way you can write what you want when you want to. The only problem that I have is that when you don't write I run out of reading material.

Yeah, I'm still around, even if only to run my communities, LOL =)

I don't know that I have fanpoodles, but I don't like to knowingly disappoint friends. Unfortunately, I pushed myself to the breaking point before realizing how screwed up my priorities are. *shrug* Live and learn, eh? In the meanwhile, I've rediscovered something wonderful, and I can't wait to share it with you guys <3

I hate the idea of making loyal readers wait on my whimsies, but alas. My muse has always been fickle :-/

I'm happy for you :) Sometimes you just need a break. Good luck!

Thanks <3

I can understand completely. Sometimes you have to step back and breath and decide what it is you really want. I'm glad to see you aren't throwing it away completely but do what you need to do to maintain your sanity.

I've invested too much in my stories to just walk away from them without an ending. I love the characters too much for that <3 But it was past time to take a break; I'm only sorry it went as far as it did before I ran running in the other direction, LOL.

And I guess I needed something to refresh my fangirl squee and make me excited about exploring characters and pairings again, you know what I mean? Its been a long time since I ran to the computer to write on an IY fic, but it seems I can't quite stop myself from working on this other one, LOL :D

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