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Title: Tainted Purity
Rating: X
Warnings: Violence, rape, character death
Word Count: 7605
Summary: She was his angel, his innocent, his beautiful purebred saint. He was her worst nightmare made flesh, one from which she could never escape.
Author’s Note: Written fordreaming_trees, who requested “Naraku/Kikyo” during my call for challenges.
This is actually a bit of a special case for my "By Request" collection. The rating and content leave me comfortable with only posting the piece at Media Miner, so you can click here to read the story. Because of its length, and the extended warnings I felt befitted the content, its posted separately from my "By Request" collection.
It seems like, with every darker piece of fic that I write, I keep saying, "This is the darkest thing I've ever written. This is the darkest thing I've ever written." Well, nothing I've produced and shared thus far holds a candle to this piece. It was an interesting, gut-wrenching, and strangely empowering experience, to write about things that personally disgust or horrify me.
I'm a firm believer that darkfic is good for the soul, and hopefully getting this out of my head will allow lighter fare to take up residence.
This was written after a two-day binge on 48 Hours Mystery and Most Evil, sparked by accounts of the Kissel murders. Thank Jeebus for streaming video to feed curiosity, and my muses.
Title: Tainted Purity
Rating: X
Warnings: Violence, rape, character death
Word Count: 7605
Summary: She was his angel, his innocent, his beautiful purebred saint. He was her worst nightmare made flesh, one from which she could never escape.
Author’s Note: Written for
dreaming_trees, who requested “Naraku/Kikyo” during my call for challenges.This is actually a bit of a special case for my "By Request" collection. The rating and content leave me comfortable with only posting the piece at Media Miner, so you can click here to read the story. Because of its length, and the extended warnings I felt befitted the content, its posted separately from my "By Request" collection.
It seems like, with every darker piece of fic that I write, I keep saying, "This is the darkest thing I've ever written. This is the darkest thing I've ever written." Well, nothing I've produced and shared thus far holds a candle to this piece. It was an interesting, gut-wrenching, and strangely empowering experience, to write about things that personally disgust or horrify me.
I'm a firm believer that darkfic is good for the soul, and hopefully getting this out of my head will allow lighter fare to take up residence.
This was written after a two-day binge on 48 Hours Mystery and Most Evil, sparked by accounts of the Kissel murders. Thank Jeebus for streaming video to feed curiosity, and my muses.
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I'm commenting as I go so... ^_^ this could be surprising.
I love the background you've set up for this - nods to canon in AU always make me sorta giddy, LOL
Kaede's reaction is very interesting, as well. Kids see a lot that adults don't - even if they can't always explain it.
OMG
I actually had to stop reading for a moment at the scene with Kaede... I seriously wasn't expecting it at ALL. It just spiraled out of control from there - I'm absolutely shocked and amazed. I didn't expect any of where it was going, but loved every second of it (in a creepy, can't-stop-watching way, of course!)
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I've just been in a mood, you know? I have to be, to binge on these sorts of shows. But I have a weakness for true crime marathons. I just wish more of the content was available where I live - CBS has full episodes of a lot of shows, but its blacked out in my region...so I'll take what I can get.
I remembered doing this sort of research for that short piece I wrote about Hojo, back in October or something, for
This was dark and creepy and ooooo. I think I need to go find something happy to read. The images you portrayed are so vivid! I know I might see this one tonight in my dreams! Way to go, Steven King! LOL
I don't know if I'm quite to that level, but thanks. Imagine living with these sorts of images in your head for two days *shudder* I wrote it and just thought, "where is this coming from?! Is it even appropriate at all to share?!" But I cleared it with
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My response to this: "Oh, Lord..."
I love the background you've set up for this - nods to canon in AU always make me sorta giddy, LOL
I had to have some way to tie it into the Inuyasha universe, after all. I'm not really experienced with writing Kikyo or Naraku, so I had to really work through it all in my mind, to make these characters these characters. The idea of him regenerating, "becoming a new person" just fit really well with the sociopathic/psychopathic personality I was attempting to give him.
OMG
I actually had to stop reading for a moment at the scene with Kaede... I seriously wasn't expecting it at ALL.
That was a really hard scene to write. There's probably not a single act more horrifying and perverse in my mind than that one. I remember reading the summary of a TV show last fall where that happened, also unexpectedly, and I seriously dry heaved.
I wrote this in linear order, and it was definitely the hardest part to write, of it all. All of the sadism and violence that comes after that was practically a walk in the park.
Now, what does that say about me, LOL?
It just spiraled out of control from there - I'm absolutely shocked and amazed. I didn't expect any of where it was going, but loved every second of it (in a creepy, can't-stop-watching way, of course!)
Well thank you. After finishing it and setting it to the side, I came back and read it and it didn't seem nearly as dark, as a finished product, as it had during the process of writing it. I wasn't really sure if it made sense, especially at the end, or if Kikyo's reasons for her thoughts, feelings, and actions rang true at all. I guess it doesn't matter so much in a piece that actually attempts to be serious darkfic/horror, but it would be nice nonetheless, I suppose.
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That's because I consciously chose where along the scale of evil I would place him. I tried to take the character we're given in canon and amplify it. There's so much focus on his obsession with Kikyo, and at the end, his somewhat sympathetic love for her, but I see their relationship as more contentious than that, and how easily his love could turn to hatred as she continually refused to give him what he truly wanted. One of the great dynamics of their relationship is how she refuses to cower or submit to him.
But yeah, I placed him somewhat in the middle of the 'Most Evil' scale, because I don't think he could ever kill her - he couldn't, in fact, in the manga story, always sending someone else to do his dirty work. So he's not quite a psychopath, but I honestly think sociopaths are far scarier in their own right *shudder*
I like your canon references It gives it that IY feel.
Thanks! It gives it that extra-special realistic twist, I think.
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it’s a pitch perfect portrait of abuse and domination.
That's exactly what I was shooting for. To me, its such a nefarious, twisting, not-always-obvious sort of thing, and many people overshoot the depiction of this sort of relationship and make it feel cheesy and unreal.
The true terror is sometimes in the details - or lack thereof.
Start to finish, I love it, love it, LOVE it! Best gift!fic EVER! Thank you so much!
*goes straight to "best reviews ever" file* LOL :D
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LOL I got so into the piece I couldn't keep coming back to comment -_-;;
The idea of him regenerating, "becoming a new person" just fit really well with the sociopathic/psychopathic personality I was attempting to give him.
It worked really, really well. It was a great lead-in and really rang true with how a lot of these things get started (ugh - you see a lot of this stuff in journalism)
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Now, what does that say about me, LOL?
LOL - positive things *patpat* I'm personally much more horrified by acts of violence, sexual acts, etc. that are perpetrated to or by children and young'uns.
I wasn't really sure if it made sense, especially at the end, or if Kikyo's reasons for her thoughts, feelings, and actions rang true at all.
Oh, they did! Or you know I'd be prodding you asking "Wait, why..." Especially in a piece like this, my journalistic tendencies come out. Made perfect sense to me!
I admit, I was really shocked at the end, with InuYasha dead, too.
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LOL, that's okay - I just thought, "Oh, man, the twists and turns this thing takes...I dunno if I want to see an immediate reaction" o.O That sort of thing.
It worked really, really well. It was a great lead-in and really rang true with how a lot of these things get started (ugh - you see a lot of this stuff in journalism)
And psychology :P After watching all those shows in a row, and formulating a good plot, I felt like I was writing a transcript, LOL. I had an idea to go at this from a different angle, but thought it'd be too hard to execute. This one worked okay as well - mostly I just hope the flow of time isn't too confusing. This wasn't meant to be a 7600 word fic, that's for sure :P
But yes - I like the patterns that tend to emerge from dealing with stuff like this. Abnormal psych was coming back to me in spades as I hashed out the background timeline.
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You get a cut off the 'national' website? Cool. Just tell them they'd get even more revenue if they allowed ALL of their full episodes to be streamed outside the US. (Seriously - why can I watch 48 Hours episodes but nothing else?!)
I'm personally much more horrified by acts of violence, sexual acts, etc. that are perpetrated to or by children and young'uns.
Yeah, it was kind of a double whammy for me, but it's interesting - just like studying what sorts of sexual acts people find arousing, you can learn just as much about them by going at it from the other direction - and seeing what they find disgusting, and maybe the reasons why.
Or - one day I'm going to figure out a way to do a dissertation on smutty fanfic and its appeal and effect on its consumers :P
Especially in a piece like this, my journalistic tendencies come out. Made perfect sense to me!
Woohoo! I feel like I've passed some sort of test.
I admit, I was really shocked at the end, with InuYasha dead, too.
But doesn't it make perfect sense, at the same time?
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LOL, partially... our advertisers also get some time on the national site, but the money comes to us. Plus the money going to national comes back to us in the form of new equipment ^_^ And I think they're actually working on expanding the full episode streaming outside the US - it should start updating within a few weeks, iirc
Or - one day I'm going to figure out a way to do a dissertation on smutty fanfic and its appeal and effect on its consumers :P
LOL You are going to start a series of dissertations... "Fanfic, smut, and the average consumer"... "Fanfic and Drama - mutually inclusive?" ^_~
Woohoo! I feel like I've passed some sort of test.
LOL - at least now you won't be bombarded with me going "But whyyyyy?"
But doesn't it make perfect sense, at the same time?
It really does. I don't think the ending would have been as strong if he had lived. In fact, I think it really would have taken away form the whole piece and the final line.
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Woohoo! :D I'm also a fan of CSI, but moreso of Without a Trace (though that show doesn't even have full episodes available on the website :( Boo).
And the episodes that have been shipped to Dutch TV are at least three years out of date, if not more...
You are going to start a series of dissertations...
No. No I am not. Not unless somebody pays me.
(But considering the people who are actually doing theses on fanfiction? That's pretty cool, though it makes me wonder WTF they're going to do with that experience after they complete their degrees :P).
I don't think the ending would have been as strong if he had lived. In fact, I think it really would have taken away form the whole piece and the final line.
I struggled a lot with the ending, trying to figure out a way to tie it all back together. It was only after a few rereads and edits that I saw my pattern in Naraku's referring to Kikyo as his angel of mercy. That was intentional - I wanted to give him the mother of all Madonna/whore complexes on top of everything else, LOL - but it didn't dawn on me that it could so easily be used to wrap up the story as well.
Neat how that works, no? This is that part of the writing process I still consider 'magical' :)
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Indeed, not. Though this ending wasn't the original one I had in mind, even that one was not what you'd consider happy. No, cycles like these never truly end, not the way we hope or wish they will.
It was tough to fight against my natural instincts for a hopeful ending, but very worth it. Catharsis through fiction, I can dig it :P
And great job with a totally depraved villain--sick, evil, unredeemable.
Thanks! It wasn't terribly hard to weave his character, even if I committed to paper acts I personally find reprehensible in the process. that's part of the reason I left some of the details ambiguous, and allowed the reader to fill in their own thoughts on what cruel, depraved things he was doing - its different for everyone, and I think that helps strengthen his character, to make him malleable, in that sense.